Creative People

Today I read a fascinating article on line about creative people. here are some excerpts that I found really interesting.

"Of all human activities, creativity comes closest to providing the fulfillment we all hope to get in our lives. Call it full-blast living.

Creativity is a central source of meaning in our lives. Most of the things that are interesting, important, and human are the result of creativity. What makes us different from apes--our language, values, artistic expression, scientific understanding, and technology--is the result of individual ingenuity that was recognized, rewarded, and transmitted through learning.

When we're creative, we feel we are living more fully than during the rest of life. The excitement of the artist at the easel or the scientist in the lab comes dose to the ideal fulfillment we all hope to get from life, and so rarely do. Perhaps only sex, sports, music, and religious ecstasy--even when these experiences remain fleeting and leave no trace--provide a profound sense of being part of an entity greater than ourselves. But creativity also leaves an outcome that adds to the richness and complexity of the future.

Creative people have a great deal of physical energy, but they're also often quiet and at rest. They work long hours, with great concentration, while projecting an aura of freshness and enthusiasm. This suggests a superior physical endowment, a genetic advantage. Yet it is surprising how often individuals who in their seventies and eighties exude energy and health remember childhoods plagued by illness. It seems that their energy is internally generated, due more to their focused minds than to the superiority of their genes.

This does not mean that creative people are hyperactive, always "on." In fact, they rest often and sleep a lot. The important thing is that they control their energy; it's not ruled by the calendar, the dock, an external schedule. When necessary, they can focus it like a laser beam; when not, creative types immediately recharge their batteries. They consider the rhythm of activity followed by idleness or reflection very important for the success of their work. This is not a bio-rhythm inherited with their genes; it was learned by trial and error as a strategy for achieving their goals.

One manifestation of energy is sexuality. Creative people are paradoxical in this respect also. They seem to have quite a strong dose of eros, or generalized libidinal energy, which some express directly into sexuality. At the same time, a certain spartan celibacy is also a part of their makeup; continence tends to accompany superior achievement. Without eros, it would be difficult to take life on with vigor; without restraint, the energy could easily dissipate.

Creative people trend to be both extroverted and introverted. We're usually one or the other, either preferring to be in the thick of crowds or sitting on the sidelines and observing the passing show. In fact, in current psychological research, extroversion and introversion are considered the most stable personality traits that differentiate people from each other and that can be reliably measured. Creative individuals, on the other hand, seem to exhibit both traits simultaneously. "

Love

I love a man so clearly and I see him for who he is. Not for who I would want him to be though I certainly could come up with some changes. Aren't we all geared that way? Please call more, come home when you say you are. Trust me, love me like no other. I choose for the first time in our relationship to stand back and possibly let him go. I don't want to.

For I am not the familar one. I am the new one. The untried, the strange. I have not manipulated him with silence when he wanted contact or words when he wanted solitude. I have been myself. The cardinal sin that I have committed is being whole and close and loving. Yet I sense I am not enough. He will not let me be enough.

He cannot trust my love. My love is open and warm. Affectionate and living. Close. I will be in his presence at his request and ask only for the joy of being with him. I do not need hotels or trips to see him. I am excited to come to him. Will this last forever, I hope so. Someday I may want more. But for now the joy of being is enough.

I do want his loyalty. I do because what is a relationship with lies between you. True love springs from true trust. To be vulnerable with anyone whether soulfully or in the flesh is to express our most childlike selves.

I deserve his love, he deserves mine but the pain of intimacy and the sirens call of familiarity may be too much. I hope not. I truly love him, I do.

First Blog

I have been wanting to write a blog for a long time. I have a lot of talented friends who are writers and many of them have been saying I should do this for a long time. Where to begin. I should start out by telling you a little about myself. I am a woman who works in the computer industry. A wierd and wonderful place where you get to work with some amazing people and some who are not so amazing. Tech geeks tend to be emotionally backwards. They love computers but people trip them up. They would rather sit in a room with machines than be forced to interact with humans. And of course my fellow employees are usually men. So you can see where communication, not to mention that old glass ceiling, could be problematic.

I love what I do though. I love the mystery of it. Fixing a computer is like solving a puzzle, a lot of the time you will know the answer right off the bat. Then there are those times when you get to really explore and search for a solution. Those are my favorite times. I also love people. I like talking to them, being with them and relating with them. So you can see that I am not your usual Techie.